The Rachel Sullivan

Why I’m starting this journal:

I’m starting this to start documenting thoughts, ideas, feelings, achievements, milestones, setbacks, journeys, development processes, and more. there is a lot, I want to share it all, and I know day to day involvement cannot be achieved. it is also probably not very healthy. Maybe it is. we can use texting for correspondence – how was your day? When are you free? Logistical demands. But the Rest I would like to document in this format. to Reach for when you are able to sit down and Read, digest, feel, remember, relive. I don’t want to burden you with my anxiety attachment, so I can feel it here first, express it here first, work through it on my own, and then show it to you my progress in the present moment. Even in the heyday of technology I feel that the written format still rules. And Reading feelings of a past tense vs experiencing them in the moment with someone is a lot to process. Maybe you can write me back in here, we can exchange each time we see each other.

I’m starting this journal today because it feels profound. For context – I was hysterical this morning, we’ve been going through a dynamic change into an unknown format for me and for this. it is hard to process it all alone, but I have to learn to self soothe.

Further analysis will be left for another day.

A few notes on formatting:

I have labeled this notebook volume 1, I hope there’s many more to come

There is a table of contents with a date and page number. I like ballpoint pens and I press very hard, so I do not enjoy writing on both sides of a page. Each sheet of paper is a singular page number and they are also noted at the top right of each page.

There is currently no titles, those are best for at the end.

Welcome to my stream of consciousness.

The names of people and identifying personal information will try to be kept to a minimum. Maybe places will stay the same, we’ll see.

The topics explored here will vary, mostly contain day to day mind explorations, working out ideas, personal dealings, etc

I hope you enjoy this, receive as much out of it as I do writing it, and maybe see a different side of me, a different side of yourself, I hope you grow, want to see you be successful, want to see you happy, explore new depths, push boundaries seen and unseen, ask questions, – why? always.

you are a great Force in my life.